In my almost 7 months of being a mom I learned that it’s mostly about patience and sacrifice. Well if you’re someone like me who thinks mostly what’s best for herself and demands instant gratification, patience and sacrifice are very much strangers to me. Or just merely acquaintances.
So it’s hard, but I learned how to lengthen my patience since crying is the only communication tool they have at first. And yes it was very frustrating how to decipher a baby’s cry especially if they have colic. There were times that I was crying because I do not know how to calm her down, sometimes I was even angry at her because she wouldn’t stop crying even if I did everything to make her stop. Sometimes I left the room just to take deep breaths and come back again. The colic phase lasted month and there were times that I just want to hand her over to her yaya but I didn’t give up. She’s my responsibility and I really want to a good mother to her. So day by day I learned. I learned that its not about me anymore and there’s a little baby who needs her mommy to take care of her. To love her. To put her first before anything and anyone.
So, I made a lot sacrifices. Like my time with friends, date night, a good long bath, an unhurried meal, my bed and sleep. Even my body as well. They say I’m still young to breastfeed and that it would ‘affect’ my body image but I didn’t care. I want what’s best for my little one and that is breastmilk. But those are just small sacrifices because I feel that a very big sacrifice for me would be to leave my little one to work. I guess I am still selfish then.
Or maybe, I’ve come to realize that being a mom is just what I want to be. To stay at home and take care of my little one. To be there as she reach every milestone there is. To comfort her when she’s crying, to teach her how to walk, talk, crawl, read, write, and the lists go on. Basically, after having my little one, all I want is to be a good mom to her. No job is more fulfilling than this. Being able to see your baby’s smile, to hear her first laugh, her first blabber, to see her light up when she sees you, what could be more wonderful than that? Nothing.
Happy Mother’s Day to all the mommies out there! I’m sure you are all doing a good job raising your child and showering them with all the love and care they need. :)
blog comments powered by